and back to this life in progress...

in looking back i now realize that the one post i had written for the month of june never got posted....oh well. such is this process called life sometimes, eh? not that things have been uneventful...

we actually have put the house back on the market, i know, i know....never say never unless you intend to eat your words. the good part and the bad part is the same: nobody has come to look or even called. there are a LOT of homes on the market here. so...having to have people come through has not yet been an issue. keeping the house looking close to ready for showing is now again a reality, i like to have it within an hour or so of showability, which for me means perfection. it isn't really to that point, but close enough. other than closets and such....

lately it feels like a house is a close metaphor for life....mine, on the surface, looks pretty good. but, man oh man, open the wrong door and watch out! on that note, i have been taking the time to occasionally reorganize drawers, closets, and areas that tend to collect junk. and giving away some things that i had been saving. it's funny how many issues this brings up, depending on what the item is i am parting with. decluttering is a process, i'm sure. letting go, as well, it seems.

do i finish unpacking? or start the packing process? it feels like i already had mostly unpacked, then packed some things away last time for the home sale process. now i am missing certain books and knick knacks that have some significance to me, and it is hard to know whether to even hunt for them. we could sell the house in a month, or it could be a couple of years. hmmm. being up in the air feels just so, well..., ungrounded.

so, i bury my face in a book. rereading Diana Gabaldon's Outlander series now, in preparation for the upcoming 7th book in the series. this is to the neglect of my other reading, i'm willing to admit. officially i belong to two book clubs, of which i sometimes even get to attend the meetings, but the Outlander story sucks me in so completely that it is hard to get really into another book, unless it is easy to read in spurts. thus, the five books currently in process. the book club choices have barely been cracked open...who knows if the deadlines will cause me to read or rebel!

knitting is another activity that helps me feel like i am progressing in some area...i have now completed my third pair of socks, some felted bags, and am working on more bags and socks. i can't figure out if people who knit lace actually liked it from the start, or if it is an acquired taste...but my so-called "easy lace scarf" has been restarted several times, and frankly, just doesn't call my name that often. maybe it is the fact that so much counting and focusing has to be done while i am the only one awake or the only one home. the former involves my sleepy self struggling to reacquaint said sleepy self with the pattern and the slippery yarn, the latter involves the "should i vaccum the house, or clean bathrooms or windows or floors, organize a drawer or closet, perhaps get some excercise, or maybe just read for a minute or two..." dilemma. yeah, i'll be lucky to finish that scarf in a twelve month time frame!